Here I am... blogging again because I seem to have nothing else to do. ): I don't even know why I use the internet anymore, there's nothing to do on Facebook and no one to talk to on MSN. Even blogging's becoming a bit dull because there's noone to talk to.
But hey, thank god I didn't take a certain layout for my blog, because someone that I've disliked for a certain number of years took that layout. *Phew. Really relieved. xD Let's call her Leech. It seems that she's quite popular, but I don't know why people like her, she just pisses the hell out of me. And she's been pissing me off for freakin 4 years. -.-
SEE I SERIOUSLY NEED TO GET A LIFE, I'M RAMBLING ON ABOUT NOTHING.
I'm so bored right now. Even my friends aren't helping right now. D:
Ahh fck it, I'll just continue on with my Maths homework.. even though I've alreayd finished it. And I finished my Macbeth questions while watching Bionicle 3: Web of Shadows on Cartoon Network! It was actually pretty good (the movie, not Macbeth!) but I still liked Bionicle 2 better. xD This is what I do when there's nothing else to watch on TV. I watch Bionicle! which actually isn't that bad, all things considered. :D
And we watched the last episode of Avatar: The Last Airbender the other day. OMG I WANTED KATARA TO BE WITH ZUKO. But that's never gonna happen. Funny that I only remember the very first episode and then the last episode. I didn't really follow it.
But now I feel like buying all 3 books to watch!!! xD
A couple of months ago I was going through my friend's iPod, looking for her My Chemical Romance songs because she loves them, like me.
Only they were nowhere to be found. D:
So I asked her were they were, and she said she deleted them. And then her friend (who should be mine too, only I don't like her much. I mean, she has a 22 year old boyfriend, it's kinda sick to me.) sitting next to her said 'Oh, she doesn't like MCR anymore, do you?'
And she replied. "Nope."
I got so mad then, not because she'd deleted the songs (I have the very same ones) and wiped the band out of her life completely, but because her supposed 'best friend' (let's call her M) got her to delete the songs because M didn't like them.
It's her fckin life, not yours! You don't dictate what songs she listens to just because you don't like them. She lived just fine before she met you, she wasn't like lost or anything.
And there's nothing wrong with MCR you stupid cow, they're an awesome band who've been misunderstood. Just because you don't like them doesn't mean the whole world has to as well.
Time for a rant, because I feel like I really need one!
Soo for starters, I got ditched by Shuriken. Again. I'm so pissed off because I can't call out his name or bang on the window to get his attention when he walks past because for some unknown reason, I'm a coward. This is where the internet turns us into fakes, even when we think it doesn't. It makes us brave on MSN, gives the impression that we're funny and loud and we laugh a lot when we really don't. Some of us do, but not all of us possess that spirit in real life.
This is where I fail.
I'm not asking for so much, simply for some time where it's just me and you. It could even be awkward, but sometimes silence is much more powerful than words. If anything, I'm asking for nothing. Just for that 15 minutes train ride. Is that too much?
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I've never hated anyone so much in my life. Nothing you do could ever make me un-hate you, because there's not a shred of light inside me that remotely likes you or feel anything apart from loathing towards you. Call me evil, but if I ever hear you say "Millie" one more time, nothing will stop me from running across the classroom and attacking you.
It seems that saying "Who the hell is Millie" doesn't have any effect on you.
Maybe you should get some fckin hearing aids you deaf human being.
Reasons why you shouldn't be teaching anymore. > No-one listens to you. > You don't know a shred of information about the topic. > Sorry, but photocopied worksheets that you don't know how to do aren't going to teach us anything. > You're fckin retired. > You have dinosaur breath.
I'm not done with insults, but who's going to read a blog filled with nothing but complaints? I'm not a whinger, I don't even complain much, but I seriously can't take this anymore. You're the only teacher I ever talk back to, and damn does it feel good. You have no idea.
I hope you're getting paid good for this term, because then you could go to a dentist and buy some good strong mouth wash. And mints. And make sure you use them everyday, because this is why we don't want to come near you.
Ok, I'm sick to death with parabolas, I've literally been working on them since this morning.
AAAAAAAAARGH.
and now I think I might have insulted/offended one of my closer friends, only I don't know how. But cutting me off makes it sound pretty pissed doesn't it?
So... sorry.
For whatever I did wrong.
I hope you don't hold grudges.
I seem to be pretty mean today without realising it, because even Shuriken isn't replying to me.
Maybe this should be enough for me today.
I shouldn't even bother signing in to facebook or msn if all I'm gonna do is piss people off.
I didn't go to school today, I've got the flu. And to all those noobs out there, NO, it is NOT H1N1... so don't even let that idea pop into your little cerebellums.
So I'm feeling a bit crappy because I'm sick obviously, but I'm also feeling insanely relieved, because I don't have to go to school and be subject to Tarzan and all her ways that piss the hell out of me.
I mean, at least the animated Tarzan didn't swear, flash others or act like a slut. The Tarzan I know is just disgusting. I mean, seriously, if you just love flashing your undies around and dressing like a slut and thinking you have all that when you most definitely don't, why don't you just walk around naked? Why do you even bother with clothes, Tarzan, when you only wear the bare minimum of it? At least I know what you have in common with the cartoonTarzan, he probably had a head full of dandruff like you and I bet he didn't wash his hair exactly like you. I also bet that he doesn't wash his hands at all, but I bet he doesn't spit all over the place like you.
Oh, and don't ever touch me because I don't want to feel your disgusting hands on me, ever. And I bet the animated Tarzan doesn't go around grabbing food off other people, thinking he knows everything when he doesn't and screaming when a fly flies around his head. Unlike someone. And I have a name, in case you haven't noticed, so the next time you ask me a question by poking me or saying 'Oi', I won't respond. That's your friggin problem.
Sorry, this post just turned into a rant. I didn't mean it to be, but I needed to let it out. D: Tarzan's seriously pissing me off.
I'm sitting in the bedroom, looking out the window, doing parabolas. A couple of hours ago a white butterfly suddenly flew into the backyard and fell straight into a pile of weeds that we'd pulled up. I had a feeling I'd just witnessed my 2nd death of an animal (my first was watching a pigeon get run over. Not a pretty sight.)
It stayed in that pile of weeds for a long time. Maybe around 10 minutes.
I wished it'd get back up, fly away. Why do butterflies only live for around 2 weeks? Something as pretty as them should live longer. But then again, if they did, the risk of them getting caught and pinned to a board might be higher.
So I stared at that pile of weeds, willing that butterfly to get back up.
I watched the wind blow the white wings around, just visible above the green.
That was when the pretty white butterfly flew up and landed on the rosemary bush just to the left of it.
I cheered. Out loud. Thank God my mum wasn't in the house :P
And then I watched that butterfly fly away over the roof of the neighbour's house.
So, a happy ending.
Doesn't it make you wish that wishing hard enough could bring someone back from the dead?
Leanne helped me choose between two of the ones I really liked, so I'm forever debted to her. :D I'm helping her choose one too, anyways.
I really like this!!!! I can't stop admiring it!!! And it's taught me soooo much html in a day, it's not funny. I'm not a noob anymore! Yay!
I had to revert back to the old template for a while because I forgot all my links... so now I have them all written down, I just have to re-type them in. I haven't put in my playlist yet because I still have to update it. :P
Leanne and I decided to do something crazy! We decided it last night! We're going to do a cover! Of どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう (aka Doushite aka Why did I fall for you) by DBSK! My first ever cover! If I don't do something before that though, I'm still trying to play 21 Guns. Might do a cover for that. :)
Watching ANTM atm, it's awesome so far. :D
And chatting with shuriken, it's so fun. We're calling each other Kay and Why now, for reasons I would not divulge in this public blog.
Oh, and I've decided to end each post with either a quote or a picture, simply because I feel like it. If I can be bothered, that is. (:
"A hug is like a boomerang. You get it back straight away.
I'm thinking of changing my blogskin.. NOT that I'm copying Leanne or anything, but I remember last year that I used to collect the blogskin URLs but never got round to changing it. Oh wait, I did. Once. The font went so miraculously tiny that you needed a magnifying glass to read it. So it killed my idea of having a fancy blogskin made by other people.
Until now.
I've found some pretty nice blogskins now! I haven't gone to the site for a while now, and I've missed out on some pretty cool skins. I'm not sure on whether to get a white background or black but I guess it depends on which has the nicer design. :D
We'll see what happens when I get round to doing it, I bet I'll mess up the html somehow, have no idea how to add in the cbox and music player html and probably fail to save it and have to revert back to my old skin. Again.
I'm a disaster waiting to happen. ;)
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If you can imagine this, you can imagine anything.
Imagine a girl wearing knee-length stripy sludge-green and black socks, white board shorts with 3 different shades of blue stripes running up along both sides. She's also wearing a black long sleeve under a green Adidas t-shirt with a football design on the front. And not to mention the black band around her wrist and the oversized navy blue jacket.
She looks like she's going to start kicking a ball around soon.
Hahaha, if you haven't guessed yet, it's just me walking around the house in another kooky outfit I cooked up just for fun. My first time wearing knee-high socks, omg. I should get an award for it. I don't even wear them to school when I should. I push them down to ankle-length. LOL.
That's all the crap I have for now, I'll save the rest for another day. ;)
Zoned out, blacked out, daydreaming, staring blankly into space.
Whatever you want to call it.
It's something you have to think slowly and carefully about.
Or maybe sometimes it just hits you. Realization that one day everything would change. Like maybe leaving high school. One day you're going to realize that high school doesn't last forever, that there will be a day when you don't wake up and don't put on the familiar shirt and tie, won't walk into school and head straight for your friends, won't be able to bag the teachers you've hated.
Because it's all over. It's gone.
So do something you want to, make new friends, do something you normally never would because you'll never get a chance at it again.
There are only so many tomorrows in the world, and we can only move forward.
When it hits you, it may all be too late,
So why am I sitting here, wasting my life on things that I'll never do again?
Ok, after like 4 days of solid chatting via facebook, maybe being in Australia isn't so bad after all. I mean I miss my friends and all, but I'm making new ones, and they're all different.
So if I made a table based on replies on facebook, it'd look something like..
Malaysia: Mostly say LOL except for the ones more fluent in English, and we laugh alot without talking about anything at all. We usually have one worded answers and we hardly ever talk back. We're not sarcastic and we usually ask 'How are you?' because we have nothing else to ask.
Australia: We give a hell of a lot of smart answers, we're sarcastic and we still laugh alot but we say more than LOL, and we don't say LOL at every sentence to just fill in the gap. We can go on for hours just being smart with each other and we hardly give one worded answers, we give sentences. And we're all fluent in English, so we can have some really hilarious conversations without going 'Huh...?'
I'm not discriminating here, I'm not even naming specific people or being mean to anyone. I'm just stating that maybe in Malaysia we need to up our smart-ness, give some smart answers, and watch the society crumble beneath us because we'll never move forward with one-worded answers.
I used to think I was pretty sarcastic when I was still in KL, but being here for almost 2 years has made me realise that maybe I'm not that sarcastic after all.
But being here has made me better at it.
So listen up people! Don't just say LOL when you're talking to your friends on msn, give some smart answers, be sarcastic, and maybe you'll find that you'll have longer conversations.
If the person you're talking to can understand you, that is.
I should be doing my extension trig (no, it's nothing to do with hair!) but I seriously can't be bothered finding out what the equivalent of cos 350 is in Quadrant 1 of the unit circle. -.-
So I can only say one thing...
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DAMN YOU PEOPLE WHO WENT TO MTV WORLD STAGE!! I HATE YOUUU!!!
LOL.
Met up with Li Ean in the city since we were both there for the Melbourne Uni open day. I was looking out for Ken too but I didn't see him or Kevin. Lucky biatch, she saw them both. :P Li Ean is sooo diff from when I remember her.
Of course, I haven't seen her in 5 years, so I can't complain. If I'd stayed in Aus I might be like her. D: Or not. Over my mother's dead body. xD And I don't think I'm stupid enough to be like that anyway. NOT THAT LI EAN IS STUPID.
But, as the saying goes...
"She wears high heels, I wear sneakers!"
LOL. I'm so sick of that song right now. So sue me if I hate Taylor Swift, but the girl can't sing.
Yesterday was out Year 10 Social (which is like a dance)! I really liked my dress but I would have liked a less puffy one, haha. Wore the same one as the one I wore to my cousin's wedding in July, but who cares? Wasn't going to get one just for one night.
You should have heard me yelling at my mum when she started putting make up on me.. I was really only thinking of putting some eyeliner and eyeshadow... but she made me sit down and started putting all the powder on me and I was just screaming "What are you doing?! What's that?! I don't want foundation!!!! No, I don't want blusher!!!!" It was kinda hilarious. Then she (finally!) ut some eyeliner on... and I couldn't stop blinking when she put it on, LOL. I was expecting the worse when I looked in the mirror but I really couldn't see any difference in my skin tone. HAHA!
Then I asked her for more eyeliner (because I'm such a noob I can't put it on myself).
I got to school REALLY EARLY. Yes, it was in school. It wasn't half bad though. I called Christie and Suelyn but they were on hiatus or something, haha. Thank god Mel was in the carpark so we met up outside with Louise because NO ONE WAS THERE YET. -.- I was shivering, either from the cold or I was nervous (?). NO idea.
Then Mel realised she forgot her ticket, HAHAHHAH!!!!! Lucky they had her name down so they let her in. She's damn lucky.
When everyone finally came, it was kinda awkward.. ONE because I don't usually dance in front of other people and if I do, I'd preferably wear trousers or shorts LOL. And TWO... I was just awkward. :D
They announced the prize winners about 3 quarters through the night. Louise won best dancer! I had a feeling she would, since she IS a dancer. :D But of course she had to prove that she deserved it. I left my group and hung out with Cass and Mel's instead and we went crazy. As in jumping up and down, screaming, yelling out the lyrics etc.. and it was FUN.
Then they played 'Single Ladies' by Beyonce, and Louise did the whole dance. What you see in the actual video clip was what we saw live. IT WAS SO AWESOME!!! Lousie should so try out for So You Think You Can Dance... we'd all vote for her, LOL.
So all in all it was a pretty great night.
And I've learnt that I don't NEED to wear lipstick/gloss on my alread red lips. :D
They say you find your true friends in college. I say you find your true friends when you move to a new country in the middle of high school.
Why, you might ask.
Well, you might get those friends who you were ever so ever so close to... only to have them distance themselves from you once you've left. Then you might get those ones who you were ok with and they're still the same. You might get those who you lose contact with altogether and don't know the first thing about their life anymore.
And then you might get those friends who you were never really close with or never even talked to, but they've proved to you that they don't need you to be there in person to get to know them properly. They're the ones who talk to you on MSN and don't wait for you to talk to them.
They're the ones who never turned your back on you.
At least, not yet.
So to those who I keep making myself talk to because I think there's still a little of that closeness left... Guess what, I'm done. I couldn't be bothered anymore. I'm not going to waste my time talking to you when I have other people who actually want to talk to me. So...
It's just a simple act. Pluck an elbow, tap a shoulder.
And shove the freakin piece of paper into a hand.
Or smile. Just smile.
Sounds easy, but it's freakin impossible right now!!!! ): Just can't seem to do it. I had the perfect chance today. I didn't take it. I might have the perfect chance tomorrow.
I can safely say that being persistent in whatever you want... you'll eventually get it. It might take a few hours, or maybe a few days,even weeks or even years, but you'll get it. I know. I've had experience in persistence... in 2 cases. And they've both paid off.
You couldn't call this a fairytale ending, because the fairytale hasn't started yet. But I know that this is the start of something extremely interesting.
I can't wait! :D
After worrying, thinking, googling, facebook-ing, I've finally got the information that I wanted, and hell do I feel relieved. Even though I could count as a kind-of stalker right now, I don't care. In fact, I keep smiling.
Because now I don't have to let go.
I can do what I want without worrying about time.
At least for a while anyway. (:
Damn, my internet has disconnected so I don't know if this will publish or not. If it's up, you now it worked.
EDIT: Hey, my internet's connected now! So it will publish! LOL!
Sometimes I stand there in the middle of the corridor. Holding my books. Feeling people pushing against me, but not feeling them. Not seeing them Because I've gone completely blank. I'm not thinking about the present. Or the future, or the past.
I'm wondering what the hell I'm doing here. How did I get here. What the hell did I leave behind... But more importantly, What the hell am I doing here?
I have no purpose here, but there's some things that I know..
I want you. I want to be able to talk to you, smile at you, laugh with you. But I can't get the words out of my mouth. And I don't know why.
I want you to leave me alone. I'm not even allowed to have a nice conversation with an almost best friend without you commenting on it. I want to just tell you to fuck off, it's my life, not yours. But I'm not that kind of person. So you think.
I'm on my knees here. I want to be free of all this. I want to just let it all go and forget about it. Save me from everyone.
Well, for starters, I freaked out last night because I found out that I'd left my science notes in school. And ended up screaming on msn with 3 of my friends, including Leanne and Arif. :D Sorry Arif if I made you feel bad!! (Though I didn't mean you to be! Hope you were kidding xD) And then I got to school (didn't even try studying on the train coz Ajaye was there and it was pretty hard to concentrate) and tried some last minute studying during lunch but it didn't work coz Bonnie and I were watching Mel work some Photoshop magic. :D
And then when we got to Science, no one put up their hand when the teacher asked if were ready, so the test has been postponed to tomorrow! (: Thank godddd! (:
W-ell, today I did the most courageous thing I've ever done in my life. I said hi to shuriken! Omg! I must have been high on something, I didn't even feel nervous. Or stupid. I was talking to a friend when I saw him so I said 'Be right back', walkd right up to him, gave his shoe a small nudge with mine and said hi!
It was even freaking awkward, probably because I was crazy.
I AM FREAKING CRAZY!
That was the best part of today!! *Dies* I guess I was preparing myself to say hi to Lime. I hope I get to!!!!!!! I don't want to let go without saying hi!!!! ):
This is MY substitute for that nasty little four letter word that is becoming such a common thing in our world. I mean, name one person you can think of who hasn't said it in their life, however short or long it is.
See? Can't find anyone. And as I far as I can remember, even kids in primary school are saying it too, so who can deprive me of saying it when I feel like it?
And sure as hell do I feel like it right now.
I AM READY TO KILL MY FREAKIN SCIENCE TEACHER!!
She has NO idea how to teach, doesn't give us any work to do, and then gives a test tomorrow! When we have learnt virtually nothing! D:<
I am sooo pissed off right now. I don't make it very clear to the teacher though, but hell Suelyn does. Or more like Suelyn makes it clear to me that she hates the teacher because she starts punching me on the arm. It's kinda funny, and I let her coz I'd probably punch her too but she might get a bruise. :P
Fook me. I just finished my science homework and now I have to start studying for that freakin test tomorrow only I have NO idea what to study! Because we learnt nothing! So there's nothing to study!
But seriously, Leanne has made me obsessed with Super Junior now. :D Just 쏘리 쏘리 (Sorry, Sorry) and 너라고 (It's You) because before I listened to 너라고, I though SuJu was super gay. Hahahah!
I'm especially in loovveee with HeeChul! He looks hawt in the 너라고 vid! (: I don't like him with long hair, he kinda looks gay, but with short hair... *fangirl squeal* DongHae is love too, because he looks like one of my friends, but he's hawt too. (:
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WARNING: Contains mild swearing; bouts of fangirly-ness; random outbursts in Korean/Japanese/Chinese/Malay. You have been warned.
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IN ABSTRACT
"It won't work. It just won't work."
"Can't you try to be a bit more positive?"
"Fine, I'm positive it won't work."
- Charlotte's Web
Kpop nutshell
ss501; super junior; big bang; dbsk; epik high; u-kiss; ze:a; shinee; 2pm; cnblue; ft island; 2ne1; mblaq; b2st; after school; brown eyed girls; g.na; 2am; infinite; code v; miss A.