For starters, last night I fell asleep in front of the fireplace (which was on, of course), because I was cold, though now that I think about it, it was probably the ice-cream I had before that made me shiver.
Anyway, while I was lying on the floor, shivering and shaking and feeling like I was going to die, I fell asleep.
Half an hour later I woke up with an extremely heavy head, nothing to do with studying, I swear. Fell into bed at around 12, and fell asleep, nice, happy and warm, intending to wake up at 8am to at least get halfway through my maths resource book, finish my two english essays, maths and Viscom assignment.
AND THEN.
Woke up at 2.30am, absolutely BURNING. I was that hot. I felt like I was in a furnace. So, okay, chucked away one of my 3 blankets, and went back to sleep.
And proceeded to have dreams about incredibly hard maths questions that I've never done in my life. They were actually floating around in my head, getting bigger and bigger. In my dream I couldn't solve them for 3 days. What a nightmare. The last time I had a nightmare was... last week (?) D: I dreamed one of my friends died. I woke up crying.
After 2.30am I woke up at least once every hour until 8am. I felt like I was going to die again, this time from the stupid pain in my head. And when I tried getting out of bed I couldn't even walk straight.
So I ended up staying in bed until 11.10am, whereby the pain subsided a bit, and then I managed to stagger out of bed, brush my teeth, eat 3 Table Water Crackers, snag a Panadol and then stagger back.
The next time I woke up it was 2.30pm.
But at least the pain was gone. I immediately ate 3 siew loong paus and 3 wor tips :B
I only managed to do another chapter for my maths and finish my Viscom, which isn't even near as awesome as I'd want it to be. But then again, I suck at Illustrator (Photoshop is my domain), so... we shall see. Which reminds me, I now have 2 essays to hand in on Tuesday, plus a maths assignment.
This week is going to be SO screwed up.
And I've just realised that I've forgotten to put in my cbox. Meh, won't die without one.
I'm sorry, I've broken the hiatus, but who cares. Not me, not you, not anyone else, because let's be honest, everyone really only cares about themselves, their closest friends, their family, and their partners.
And sometimes you get those people who only care about themselves.
It's 12:12 (make a wish, though you and I both know that it'll never come true), my panda eyes are at their very worse, I have to stay back in school tomorrow for the 3rd consecutive day, AND exams are in less than 2 weeks, but I do not give a crap. Not tonight.
So what happened ? I hear you say. Did someone die ? Did you break up with your boyfriend ? Are you diagnosed with a irreversible disease that you'll eventually succumb to ?
To all questions above, the answer is a big, fat NO (sorry to all of you who wanted something more dramatic to happen in their lives). Nobody I know is dead, I'm single and proud of it, and as far as I know, my body is as strong as a horse (seriously).
Well, get to the point already ! I hear you say now. So I will.
This world is sick. This world that we live in. We are sick.
People change all the time, yes, I'm aware of that, but this is something we've been diagnosed with since the moment we draw our very first breath of air, from the very moment the doctor gives you a hard smack to get those lungs going, from the moment you experience touch, sight, smell, sound.
Ask yourself this; have you ever talked behind a friend's back ? Maybe told them to shut up every now and then ? Maybe passed notes around, spread rumors about them simply because you didn't like them ?
Well, if you have, then kindly get out of my blog, because I refuse to have people like you in my blog. I wish. I am one of those people, and I will admit it because I have nothing to be afraid of.
We are all ungrateful. We are all traitors. We lament when we don't have friends, envy those who seem to be surrounded by people, yet when we finally get those people, all we want is to be rid of them.
This is what we are. We can't change that. Nothing can ever change that.
So why do I still feel sick when it's staring me right in the face ?
yes, I cried. I didn't want to, I refused to let it happen, but it did. & now I feel so much better. thanks, A :)
Won't be updating for a while. Exams in exactly 3 weeks. /dies
This week's going to be pretty hectic anyway.
Monday: Physics presentation. Tuesday: Methods results back [hopefully] Wednesday: Physics test after school. Thursday: Squash at MSAC Friday: Prepare for Japanese writing outcome for Monday.
Sigh.
Things to let go: .Icons .Wallpapers /They take FOREVER to make. .Bleach /BUT I JUST GOT BACK INTO IT SDJASLFJLJSLSJAKL .Vampire Knight /cry .Facebook FORSHO .Deviantart /ButILikeBeingFamousForADay ): .Twitter /sofreakinaddictive .msn /noprobs .ANYTHING KPOP RELATED (The hardest option EVA). .THE INTERNET (Oh wait, THIS is the hardest option).
Ohh Bleach. I'm only at chapter 83, and there are currently 402 chapters. I'm SO DEAD.
The character I fell in love with: KyuHyun and DongHae :)
The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: KangIn. And EunHyuk. And YeSung ! And RyeoWook. Oh wait, I never expected to love Super Junior, period.
The character everyone else loves that I don't: I... don't... not... love... anyone.
The character I love that everyone else hates: HEECHUL. :3
The character I used to love but don't any longer: W-ell I used to love Kyu like crazy... but not so much anymore.
The character I would shag anytime: DongHae the fish. Okay, that sounds really freaky.
The character I'd want to be like: Apparently I already look like EunHyuk. So let's just go the whole hog and make me a clone !
The character I'd slap: Several people; 1. HanKyung. COME BACK YOU IDIOT. WE NEED YOU TO COME AND SPEAK BAD KOREAN AGAIN. 2. Kangin. WHERE THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE GOING, RACOON ?! 3. KiBum. WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING, [insertnicknamehere] ?!
A pairing I love: EunHae ! EunMin ? KiHae ? YEWOOK ! I have too many -___-
A pairing that I despise: I'M SICK OF HANCHUL. ENOUGH WITH THE HANCHUL. STOP DOMINATING THE FANFICS, HANCHUL.
Favorite character: I don't have specifics ): Oh wait. DONGHAE.
My two favorite characters: DongHae and EunHyuk ! I think. Or maybe Yesung. Or SungMin. Or RyeoWook. Or Kangin. I give up.
My two least favorite characters: You think this would be easy with 13 members, but hell no.
Which character I am most like: I look like EunHyuk. I shake my leg non-stop like EunHyuk. I'm also a dancing machine and I write my own raps (Just kidding, this one's a lie). So I must be like ShinDong EunHyuk !
My deep, dark, fandom secret: The fish has started to look old. And I'm a terrible fan. /traitorrrrr
I feel like I haven't posted for a week, but it's only been two days. I guess my biological clock is even more messed up than I thought.
/reads the headlines that SISTAR's Hyorin is Jang Geun Seuk's girl. NOOOOO ! One second later. /reads that CN Blue will come back on the 19th. YESSSSS !
So anything new ?
No.
I'm still reading my kppop articles (even though I'm boycotting the songs), Daniel's still begging me to buy him a plane ticket so he can come visit me, Arif's still head over heels, Howie's still my brother, and Keefe is still... living in his own world. And chicken biscuits still taste nothing like chicken.
Oh, did I mention that my faith in Super Junior is steadily declining ? They're no longer the biggest boyband in the world. They used to be, and that's what people will remember them as. Well, the ones who knew them from the start anyway.
Once you hit the suit/manly concept, there's no more turning around. So I'm not anticipating whatever 'new' concept this is. Vampires ?
Lightning strike Inside my chest to keep me up at night Dream of ways To make you understand my pain
Clouds of sulfur in the air Bombs are falling everywhere It's heartbreak warfare Once you want it to begin, No one really ever wins In heartbreak warfare
If you want more love, why don't you say so? If you want more love, why don't you say so?
Drop his name Push it in and twist the knife again Watch my face As I pretend to feel no pain
Clouds of sulfur in the air Bombs are falling everywhere It's heartbreak warfare Once you want it to begin, No one really ever wins In heartbreak warfare.
If you want more love, why don't you say so? If you want more love, why don't you say so?
Just say so...
How come the only way to know how high you get me Is to see how far I fall God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me but I can't break through at all.
It's a heartbreak...
I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight Let's just fix this whole thing now I swear to God we're gonna get it right If you lay your weapon down Red wine and Ambien You're talking shit again It's heartbreak warfare Good to know it's all a game Disappointment has a name It's heartbreak, heartbreak.
. 17x4 punches from evelyn, suelyn, amy and christie [in that order] . God knows how many facebook wishes... and I replied to EVERY SINGLE ONE. Because I'm a nice kid. /quote hermes "repect weyh, post back their wall one by one." . 17 cupcakes, instead of a cake, for once [which I iced myself, teehee. it was funnn] . A forgotten prezzie from Mel. ROFL
I don't usually get presents for my birthday anyway, so I'm not really caring if I do. Though if I DO get any, it would be awesome :) I share my bday with... 4 girls in school and a friend one year younger than me. It's kinda freaky, but oh well.
I'm 17. So why do I still feel like an immature 14 year old ?
Because when I was 14, it was my best year. That's probably why. :)
IN AN HOUR AND 10 MINUTES, YOURS TRULY WILL BE 17.
Stuff school.
STUFF DOUBLE MATHS.
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Ah, U-Kiss Vampire. Why so addictive ? :)
Thanks to this variety show, I go around wondering what blood type people are. /sigh
Kibum, why so smexy ? Xander, why so AndreKim/KingKong/missing a brain ? Kevin, WHY SO AEGYOOOO ? Eli, why so funny ? Kiseop, why so perfectly quiet ? SooHyun, why so gentlemanly ? DongHo, WHY SO FUSSY ?! BE A MAN !
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EDIT: CONGRATS TO TABLO ON YOUR BABY GIRL ! :) You'll be a great father, I'm sure of it. Just don't give her a freaky English name.
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IN ABSTRACT
"It won't work. It just won't work."
"Can't you try to be a bit more positive?"
"Fine, I'm positive it won't work."
- Charlotte's Web
Kpop nutshell
ss501; super junior; big bang; dbsk; epik high; u-kiss; ze:a; shinee; 2pm; cnblue; ft island; 2ne1; mblaq; b2st; after school; brown eyed girls; g.na; 2am; infinite; code v; miss A.