A beautiful lie.
Two faced, two faced, everybody's two faced.
Come on, sing it with me.
See, long time ago, I had this group. We promised eternal friendship, that we would be together forever no matter what. Well, didn't happen. In the very same year that we promised eternal friendship, we split. The common case of "I don't like you so I don't want to hang out with you anymore. So you can take your sad pathetic group - or what's left of it - and sit over there in the corner."
I took sides. At the same time, I didn't take sides.
I scuttled back and forth between each camp. I hung out with the excluded ones because I didn't think it was fair. And it
wasn't fair. And I was the one who took them in in the first place. So I'd stick by them no matter what. And when I said that, I meant it.
I worked like crap to stitch back that giant crevice. And it worked. Kind of. There was still discrimination, but no one dared to show it. Apart from those two. Those two who pissed the crap out of me because one of those two happened to swear eternal friendship with
me, only she'd ditched me. But nevermind. I had the others.
I won't lie, I felt like the leader. And the other one felt like the leader too. So there were the both of us, vying for leadership in the one group, while being leader to our split groups. But while the other one was trying to split the group even more, I was trying to prevent that. Sounds like good v evil huh ?
Pfft, in my dreams.
When I left, they promised me that they'd stay forever as one. That they'd never break up, for my sake.
Hear my big belly laugh.
It goes like this:
If L1 is there, there's definitely going to be A1 and A2.
If the people above are there, W will def be there.
If W is there, then there's no S1.
If A1 is there, then there's no S2.
If there's no S2, there's no M.
And L2 just doesn't really care xD
And there's just no one for S3.
I know, I just made it SO obvious who these people are, but I don't care. Because when I went back in December, they all got together and acted like nothing was wrong. And I was blind.
When I was down I told myself I was the glue that held them all together. But I was kidding myself. I was just trying to deceive myself into thinking that I was important. And then I got told that I WAS the glue.
This is my group of friends.
What a beautiful lie.
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